One week. Five faculty. 130 students. An AI tutor named Paski. And an NPS of +78. What happens when you mix live faculty with generative AI?

Just over 100 days ago, a team of us gathered at Evans Hall on Berkeley Campus to design a new kind of learning experience - a Generative AI 1-Week Intensive.

The faculty “Dream Team,” as Prof. Xiao-Li Meng called them in the Harvard Data Science Initiative’s press release, had flown in from Boston, Munich, Lausanne, and Vancouver. My team at Next Gen Learning (NGL) was privileged to work alongside them.

This wasn’t a regular course-design workshop.

Our goal was to combine the best of humans and machines for a deeper, faster, and more applied learning experience than today’s online courses can offer. We already knew that pairing live faculty with AI tutor precision and personalization improves engagement and speed to comprehension. Now we had the opportunity to test that theory formally - and at scale - with some of the world’s top academic and industry minds.

Two weeks ago, we presented the course to 130+ participants from around the world. This is a screenshot from our opening lecture showing student locations behind a wall of student emojis during Prof. Meng’s welcome address:

Our AI Campus integrates live video classrooms with instant transcripts so that AI tutors can weave seamlessly in and out of each learner’s journey. After the lecture is finished, AI podcast hosts summarize and relate the lecture to each student’s professional context and learning goals.

The campus is alive in more ways than one. I’ll explain how - and introduce the other generative AI technologies we integrated - but first, the results.

The Results

  • Net Promoter Score (NPS): +78

  • 50% of total learning time (9 of 18 hours) was spent with Paski, our AI Tutor

Why does this matter?

Because it validates something essential: that a course taught by humans and machines together can achieve high quality, high engagement, and meaningful impact.

It also points, to me, of a future where learners, faculty members, and institutions will work with AI collaborators. This gets me very excited.

Education’s problem today isn’t access — the internet solved that decades ago. The problem is engagement. And generative AI, when used thoughtfully, may be the key to fixing it.

Here’s what participants said:

Over the past six months, and particularly through the intensity in the past 100 days, the NGL team has learned a lot about how to integrate AI into teaching and learning.

This post covers several topics, designed to share our learnings with the hope that it can be used by educators, technologists and leaders who seek to integrate generative AI thoughtfully and responsibly into their work. I have included a range of screencasts to more fully showcase our work and underlying methods.

What This Post Covers

  1. 50% of student learning time was spent with Paski, our AI Tutor

  2. Why most AI tutors fail

  3. How we designed Paski

  4. How Paski works technically

  5. Integrating faculty’s Digital Twins

  6. Personalized lecture debriefs

  7. The Personalized Curriculum / Personalized Textbook

  8. Blurring the line between education and consulting

  9. What didn’t work

  10. The student experience - in their words

  11. Personalizing for corporate teams

  12. What’s next

1. 50% of Student Learning Time with Paski

Students spent nine hours in one week learning with Paski - half of their learning time. That’s extraordinary engagement.

We had initially designed the course for 35% of time with AI collaborators. The fact that students exceeded that target suggests that Paski was not just functional - it was compelling. Here is a summary graphic from our course blueprint:

On the final day, one student asked “Can I keep Paski forever?“ That line captures what’s possible when an AI tutor feels integrated, not optional.

And we do think about a future where AI tutors follow learners across programs, building personalized knowledge graphs and helping connect theoretical insights to professional practice over time. But we’re not there yet.

2. Why Most AI Tutors Fail

Most AI tutors fail because they sit on the periphery of the learning experience.

They’re bolted on, not built in.

They lack awareness of the student’s goals, progress, and materials.

They’re under-designed, under-trained, and under-used.

It’s like asking a human tutor to wait quietly in the corner of a classroom, hoping a student might start a deep conversation. No surprise that adoption rates are often under 3%.

By contrast, success comes from designing the AI tutor into the core learning path - as intentionally as a faculty-led session or group discussion.

3. How We Designed Paski

We embedded Paski directly into the student’s core learning sequence - not as a helper, but as an essential participant.

We gave it a voice, and let students respond in theirs. OpenAI’s Realtime API has made this really easy to do technically.

We made voice control student-driven - they decide when to start and stop speaking. That small UX choice made a big difference in comfort and flow.

Result: 89% of Paski interactions were by voice, with the balance via text.

And because it supports 50 languages, it lowers cognitive load for multilingual learners.

Faculty co-design each tutorial to mirror how they’d guide a 1-on-1 discussion with their best teaching assistant. For example:

Day 1 of the Generative AI 1-Week Intensive:

  • Live lecture by Stephanie Dick on the history of intelligence and AI

  • 1-on-1 tutorial with Paski: “How to assess the intelligence of an AI system”

  • Group debrief with Stephanie.

This thread - live faculty, AI tutorial, live reflection - defines the heart of our pedagogy: human inspiration, machine precision, integrated design.

Here’s a 4 minute accelerated demo of how students would experience that tutorial with Paski:

Now let’s move to the more technical explanation.

4. How Paski Works Technically

Conceptually, Paski is an AI tutor agent orchestrated through a structured sequence of:

  • Contextual prompts (grounded in course materials)

  • Student-profile variables

  • Tool calls (load documents, whiteboards, slides; get reference materials; retrieve message history; get lecture transcript; call another Agent; et al)

  • Ongoing dialogue memory

Here is a conceptual diagram of how it all works:

I’d like to share a little more under the hood. So here is a screencast of the Initial Prompt we use for the AI tutorial you saw in the screencast above titled ”How to assess the intelligence of an AI system”. I also expand on how we use a range of merge variables to personalize tutorials, and load artefacts like documents, whiteboards and presentations alongside the tutor so that we can extend AI tutorials into students work on their artefacts, all guided and supported by the AI tutor:

Each tutorial is scaffolded through prompt engineering that personalizes tasks and dynamically loads relevant artefacts - enabling Paski to shift from conversational tutor to quasi-consultant.

In this course, Paski guided students through building their own AI Strategy, based on DAIN Consulting’s 9-part framework (first published in Harvard Data Science Review - and more about the incredible DAIN team later). The result: participants left with a work-ready strategy document that applied the course frameworks directly to their professional context.

5. Integrating Faculty Digital Twins

Students begin their journey with a personalized video message from Prof. Xiao-Li Meng’s avatar - his “digital twin.” The twin then hands over to Paski for an onboarding conversation, where it gets a deeper view of the participants’ work history, interests and learning goal. and later re-appears to post personalized reflections and questions in the participants social feed.

This screencast shows all of the above in action on our AI Campus:

This demonstrates the capabilities of digital faculty avatars. While we see clear value in contextual explainers and onboarding sequences, we’re still exploring their broader pedagogical potential beyond novelty.

6. Personalized Lecture Debriefs

One of my favourite innovations: personalized audio debriefs for live lectures. This activity uses NotebookLM’s Audio Overview feature, which I covered extensively in NGL’s launch post.

Using lecture transcripts, slides, and each student’s professional profile, our system generates a 10-minute podcast-style reflection linking key insights from the lecture to the student’s own work context. It’s like having two expert hosts sit down the next morning to discuss what you learned yesterday and prepare you for the day ahead. These were released the morning after each lecture to support spaced reflection and application.

Here is a screencast of this personalized lecture debrief in action:

Reach out if you’d like to see the custom prompt and data sources we use to create this personalized podcast audio.

This personalized lecture debrief, together with personalized welcome videos from faculty avatars, forms part of what we’re referring to as a personalized curriculum.

7. The Personalized Curriculum / Personalized Textbook

Personalization in education isn’t about endless customization. It’s about targeted relevance.

We personalize 5–10% of an otherwise stable core curriculum.

Generative AI allows this curriculum to adapt dynamically to a student’s role, goals, and professional context. Google’s Learn Your Way inspired this approach: start with shared material, personalize where it counts.

I like Learn Your Way’s simple approach to the personalization of a textbook:

  • Start with a standard body of text

  • Ask students which grade they are in, and let them choose an interest (specific sports, music, film, etc…)

  • Personalize the text to that students context based on their grade level and area of interest.

The below illustration shows how text describing Newton’s Third law is personalized for two different learner profiles:

We are now personalizing foundational text and articles as part of the student experience, which keeps 90% of the original article intact, and adds examples and questions that are personalized to (1) the student’s professional context - their role, work history, industry, etc… - and (2) their learning goals.

Here is a screenshot of the start of a foundational article that describes a framework for implementing Agentic workflows in an organization, which has has been personalized to our Head of Education’s (Ester van der Walt) context.

The personalized reading begins with the article with the same text included in the original article:

And then it threads in a personalized section titled “Consider this in your context, Ester“. The system understands Ester’s professional context and learning goals, which means it can include highly relevant sections as you see below:

Any level of personalization is possible. And we are continuing to research exactly how to personalize readings like this for maximum engagement and improved speed to comprehension.

8. Blurring the Line Between Education and Consulting

Teaching and consulting have always overlapped. What’s new is how AI can bridge them.

In this intensive course, Paski acted as both tutor and consultant, helping students design actionable AI strategies within their organizations - guided by faculty and supported by DAIN’s proven frameworks.

This is where our work with Dirk Hofmann, Ulla Kruhse-Lehtonen and their amazing team of Principals at DAIN Studios really shone. Dirk and Ulla were one of the first to write about Gen AI Strategy back in 2020, publishing their article “How to Define and Execute Your Data and AI Strategy” in the Harvard Data Science Review. This article underpins the entire course, providing us with a rich framework to both teach and apply.

This ability to apply learning in context meaningfully increases the ROI of education for working professionals.

Here is a screencast of Paski in action as a copilot to students in building their AI strategy documents, together with an overview of the prompting and tool calling that makes this feature possible:

The working professional market is agreeing with us on the ROI of these programs. 100s of students signed up for programs with these features over the past three weeks.

More on student feedback in section 10 below. But first:

9. What didn’t work well?

As with all endeavours, several things didn’t work well in our 1-week Intensive presentation.

Our native transcripts, created by Generative AI, weren’t accurate enough. We caught this at the end of the first lecture and switched to using Descript for all lecture transcription. Descript is excellent!

Our group work didn’t work well. This failure didn’t strictly occur due to any generative AI integrations. But for completeness, this is worth mentioning. This was also totally our (my) fault. Our first group work session, comprising micro cohorts of 5 participants, was a poor learning experience. We quickly realised this was mostly because the groups weren’t facilitated. So we added facilitators to day 2’s group work and this corrected some of the issues. We think that the balance of the issues were due to suboptimal group composition and some technical issues with facilitating live, web-based video rooms. We have a new design for group work - using facilitators, Miro-style boards and a tightly structured group-work agenda that we believe will help us add successful group work to our upcoming courses.

10. The Student Experience

Students described the week as “transformative,” “intense,” and “immediately applicable.”

Several shared reflections on LinkedIn - from Frankfurt to Phoenix to California - showcasing the global reach and professional diversity of our cohort.

Ozren Winkler, M.Sc. Finance, CIA, Senior Manager Internal Audit EMEA at Mitsubishi Chemical from Frunkfurt wrote about his AI learning journey here. Marcial Hernandez-Manzano from California wrote “I just completed a one-week 𝐇𝐃𝐒𝐈 – 𝐀𝐈 𝐒𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐠𝐲 𝐏𝐫𝐨𝐠𝐫𝐚𝐦, and it completely shifted my perspective about…". Kaylen Johnson, from the Greater Phoenix Area, wrote about live lectures, collaborative lab sessions, and 1-on-1 tutoring with the AI tutor Paski in her post here.

11. Personalizing for Corporate Teams

We’ve also experimented in working with leadership teams - in one course including a group of 30 people from the same company - customizing their learning paths to align with their CEO’s specific AI agenda. Each individual left with an AI strategy document and high-value use cases for their role and function, and the CEO received a post-course report describing how their teams’ work helps refine their AI policy.

This model offers enterprise-level value at a fraction of what it would usually cost to deliver that value.

12. What’s Next

We’re designing a course to help educators integrate AI into online education - combining practical, ethical, and pedagogical dimensions.

If you’d like early access, leave your details and we’ll contact you first:

We’re building in the open - sharing our work, learning from others, and advancing the responsible use of generative AI in education. If you’re building the future of learning, I’d love to hear what’s working for you, and what isn’t.

Gratitude

This has been the fastest venture I’ve ever built - thanks to the force-multiplying power of AI and the extraordinary dedication of the NGL team and our collaborators. As Hagen Rode and I first set out to build NGL, we knew that this time would be different - faster for sure. It is also turning out to be such a rich experience underpinned by inspiring collaborations.

Major thanks to our entire team for their tireless work in bringing all of this to life.

  • Adrian Visagie, Andre Grobler, Bronwen Henshilwood, Claire du Preez, Clara Soldani, Damian Fisher, Ester Van der Walt, Hagen Rode, Jacques Fourie, Jannah Ruthven, Paski and our other AI Agents, Robyn Costa, Rodney du Preez, Sammy-Jane Every, Stella Pickard, Vionne Schmidt. Special thanks to Graham, Mandy and Jen Paddock when we first trialled our work. And to Samer Salty and Rob Paddock for their ongoing support.

This work was made possible through close collaboration with incredible faculty: Prof. Xiao-Li Meng (Harvard), Prof. Ani Adhikari (Berkeley), Stephanie Dick (SFU), Dirk Hofmann (DAIN Germany), Ulla Kruhse-Lehtonen (DAIN Finland) and Vinitra Swamy (Scholé).

The DAIN team of Principals include Hanna Gronqvist, Ivana Ovcaric, Gyorgy Paizs and Dustin Schwarz and we couldn’t have done this work without their contributions. The team of Berkeley Data Science TAs brought our Live Labs to life, led by Vinitra Swamy of Scholé, and included Angela Guan (Microsoft), Anna Nguyen (Stanford), Jacob Warnagieris (Amazon), Kevin Miao (Apple), Maya Shen (CMU), Ryan Roggenkemper (Waymo), Tam Vilaythong (Google) and Will Furtado (Citadel).

The future of learning is very exciting. I can’t wait to share more of our progress soon.

Onwards,

Sam and the NGL Team

Hello world. We are NGL.

18 months ago, I gave myself 2 years to find my next business venture. If you know me, you’ll understand it took a lot to give myself that much time. Surely I could find it faster than that!?

But, of course, timing is a major driver in business as it is in life. I needed to allocate sufficient time to explore actively and widely - making myself alive to possibility - while also waiting for the next thing to present itself. The first thing is in my control. The second is not.

The overachiever in me is pleased to report that it took me a year to find it! The strategist in me is grateful that I started searching when agentic AI was being born. 

Back in September ‘23, I had just returned from a sabbatical where I focussed on family time and on studying generative AI. After committing to this 2-year period of searching for my next commercial venture, I started exploring widely - I ran a programme for entrepreneurs, I put together a boutique private equity offering, supported the CEO of a large international company on issues of strategy and innovation, built an AI assistant that could see and talk, built an AI group collaboration app, and helped commercialise our family farm. 

Breaking my leg (badly!) during this time was strangely supportive of the task at hand. There’s nothing like spending 3 months in bed to focus the mind, and then 2 hours of daily rehab to rediscover the value of discipline. I digress.

Then one day in September last year I heard chatter on Twitter (X) about this new “audio overview” feature that Google Notebook’s team had just launched. 

It blew me away.

If you haven’t seen it, you have to try it

After uploading any document, presentation or link to a website, it generates an audio podcast that helps you quickly understand the subject matter through a casual, editorialised, highly engaging 2-person conversation. 

It feels like magic. And it sounds like real people. But, of course, it isn’t either. 

It is a very clever implementation of generative AI with the latest voice models from Google’s Deep Mind that no one else has access to.

My first thought was that I had seen the future of education.

But after a few days, I realised that wasn’t quite right. I hadn’t seen the future. This is how learning has always been. 

We learn best by listening to others. And all the better when those people know enough about us to make the learning personal. Even better if we can talk back and have a conversation with them!

This is the domain of great teaching and 1-1 tutoring - the gold standard for any learner who can afford it. We’ve known this since forever, and understood it through research since the 1980s (see Bloom’s 2 sigma problem). While we’ve made progress in using technology to close the gap between the efficacy of group and 1-1 instruction, a meaningful gap still exists today.

Last September, NotebookLM didn’t show me the future of education. It showed me how ancient learning can be scaled in a digital, AI-enabled world; how these technologies could deliver smarter, faster, even more human online education experiences.

I’ve written a separate post titled “Scaling ancient learning in an AI-enabled world”. It deals with the more technical nuances and theoretical underpinnings of using these technologies for anyone who wants to go deeper. 

Bottom line: This technology - when it’s well integrated - doubles learning gain. It makes learning more personal; it makes it faster. This has major implications for teaching and learning, similar to the impact streaming video and broadband had 15 years ago that led to the validation and proliferation of current generation online courses as we know them today.

And now, the next generation of learning is coming. 

All of this to say that 6 months ago I found my next business venture. I’m back in EdTech. I’m all in!

I have an incredible team.

As we’ve navigated the last 6 months, I’m increasingly aware that something is different in building teams today. In just 180 days, our team of 7 people have worked with a range of generative AI tools, agentic AIs and esteemed faculty at world leading Universities to build online courses that feature AI tutors and copilots that, in our most recent presentations, achieved an NPS of 94.

That’s a long sentence. My takeaway: great people + generative and agentic AI = new levels of productivity. 

The way we’re building our team is not different from the way we’re building the next generation of education. We’re combining people + AI to achieve outsized results. 

As always, it starts with great people.

Hagen Rode and I partnered at university, where we came first in all our tech projects. We've also worked together on previous ventures. He now leads all technology at NGL.

Robyn Costa was part of the founding team at GetSmarter and we’ve been working together for almost 20 years. Robyn runs Strategic Projects and fills in all the important gaps. Always.

Sammy-Jane Every led 150 people building current gen online courses for the world’s leading Universities. She works with me on strategy and runs our product and commercials.

Ester van der Walt’s exceptional mind is the reason we have been able to marry pedagogy and gen AI technology to create AI tutoring experiences that yield an NPS of 94. Just exceptional.

Jannah Ruthven leads Design. Her rare full stack combination of marketing smarts, copywriting, design and operational management means there is little we do that she doesn’t touch. And make beautiful.

Stella Pickard is my Executive Assistant and without whom I wouldn’t be able to operate across so many different parts of my life. She makes everything better. She is also a lawyer and tech entrepreneur.

And while we leverage generative and agentic AI a ton - just to be clear, we are hiring.

We have a small group of amazing investors who are close to home for me: Graham and Mandy Paddock, Rob Paddock and Samer Salty - people whose views and support I value deeply.

What we’re doing wouldn’t be possible without leading thinkers from global institutions. From leading Universities to publishers and corporates, we’re working with people who are bold and passionate about their work in education. They care about innovation; and they care about doing it responsibly. They want a hand in shaping tomorrow. It is such a privilege to work with them.

We’re on a mission to inspire the use of gen AI and voice models in the next generation of online courses. This is why we call ourselves Next Gen Learning (NGL).

We are what we do. 

Watch this space.

More at www.nxgl.ai

Executive Assistant to Sam Paddock

Location: Cape Town, South Africa.

Overview:

I am seeking a service-oriented, highly organised Executive Assistant to support me, my Family Office and my family. This role demands a proactive approach to managing a wide range of responsibilities, from project, property and office management to personal and family logistics. The ideal candidate will give me confidence that they will get ahead of me, develop a reputation for exceptional service to me and my small Family Office team, and seamlessly integrate into our personal and professional lives. Discretion and confidentiality are paramount. 

Key Responsibilities:

  • Project and Team Coordination: Participate in project management and team coordination through various communication platforms, ensuring smooth day-to-day operations across different facets of my professional and personal life.

  • Meeting and Diary Management: Oversee daily, weekly, quarterly and annual meeting rhythms. Schedule meetings, manage diaries, and oversee the organisation of family and business events, highlighting important dates and arranging gifts.

  • Office Management: Maintain my home office and help me prepare for monthly operating and finance meetings with a variety of stakeholders on different projects.

  • Financial Management: Oversee budgeting, reporting, payments, and liaise with financial management services, ensuring accuracy in transaction allocations and payroll.

  • Property Management: Oversee the day-to-day operations of the family’s primary residence, coordinating with contractors and service providers for maintenance and upkeep. Provide support to the family’s General Management team at our family estate, Drakenskloof.

  • Family Administration: Manage household staff, philanthropy, insurance, medical, vehicles, pets, and other family functions.

  • Travel and Logistics: Plan and book travel arrangements, including flights, accommodation, visas, and other logistics.

Skills and Qualifications:

  • Strong communication skills and the capacity to work independently and as part of a team.

  • Exceptional organisational and time-management skills with the ability to prioritise tasks in support of multiple project priorities.

  • Proven experience as an Administrative or Executive Assistant or in a similar role with a comprehensive understanding of project, property and office management, personal support tasks, and financial management.

  • Discretion and confidentiality are paramount.

  • Proficiency in office software, including word processing, spreadsheets, and presentation software, as well as the ability to quickly learn new tools and software.

  • Flexible and adaptable, with the willingness to take on tasks as needed to support the family and business.

  • Undergraduate degree is an advantage.

  • Valid driver’s license and personal transportation.

To Apply:

Please send your resume and a cover letter detailing your experience and why you believe you would be a good fit for this role to sam@paddocks.io.

Break my leg; fortify my foundations

12 days ago I broke my left tibia and fibula while playing Padel. It was brutal. I feel like I’ve lived a year in a week. Now, post surgery and as I emerge from a pain-medication induced fog, I begin the 6-month rehabilitation process and I’m energised to do it well. The following comprises excerpts from my journal in blog post format.

The irony is that I have felt so strong this year.

Kicking off shortly after the new year, I had a near perfect record of daily breathing and mobility exercises. It’s just 15 minutes each morning - 7 minutes of breathing and 8 minutes of mobility - but I have found this practice to be a source of calm and strength each day. Coupled with daily writing, a clear personal plan for the year, and several high quality alignment discussions with the people who work with me, I have felt strong and purposeful.

One of the lenses I take to my life is that of my “rhythms”. Daily, weekly, monthly, quarterly and annual rhythms. I love a rhythm!

Keri and I recently started a monthly “Padel and dinner” with our close friends, Robs and Dan. It has been fun. But they also white washed us last month, which meant that this next match was always going to be important. 

And so as last Tuesday evening’s match began, we came out of the blocks firing! Keri was playing exceptionally well. We quickly went 5-1 up. They clawed back to 5-3. And now Keri was serving for the set. At 30 all, I knew the next point mattered a lot. After a good service, Dan lobbed me and I stepped back to take the volley. I remember falling back on a peculiar footing and suddenly hearing what someone at the Padel club later described as “the sound of a gun shot”. 

I knew instantly that I had broken my leg and went down on the ground. I could see the different levels between my mid and lower left shin. This was bad.

But there was no immediate pain. Shock is an amazing thing.

One of the people at the club was a trauma medic and helped put a small splint on my leg. The pain was now unbearable, but the small splint gave me confidence to hold the two pieces of my leg together. Several large men hoisted me up under my arms while I did my best to minimise movement at the break site. We got into a car and drove to the local hospital’s Emergency Room. Every bump in the road was cause for a primal scream.

Sometime early the next morning I wrote:

I broke my lower left leg in both bones while playing Padel. I came down twisted on my left foot and heard a clear crack.

I knew it was broken clean through. I couldn’t move my shin without lifting the whole foot and shin all together.

There was no pain at the start. And then every move brought all the pain in the world.

Keri, Dan, Robs and others at Padel were so helpful. I got in a car.

The doctor took X-rays. That was sore.

Then the doctor said they need to snap back the knee. They would give me Ketamine for this.

They gave me the Ketamine. It was a wild wild trip. I felt some of the pain. But I felt I was going on a journey outside of myself flying through the air with oranges and reds as the prominent colours. And Dragons. It’s like I was one with and inside of so many things, and it was beautiful.

Now I am in the wards for sleep. They gave me more pain meds. And more sleeping pills.

Next pain meds are at 6.30am. I can feel I am going to need them.

As I wobble my leg, it feels like it is in two parts. I’ve never felt this before. Legs are always solid. My left leg is not solid.

It sounds like the operation will only happen on Thursday, which is my kids’ birthday. And tomorrow will be about CT Scan to look for ankle issues. 

Here is my x-ray post break. You can see my hands and wedding ring clearly in the x-ray because there was no chance I was going to let it go! Next to it is a picture of me before surgery with a clay figurine my kids (and Nana!) had made for me - it’s me playing Padel with a cast on my leg!

I think there are going to be many challenging periods to this recovery, but the most challenging part to date was being told the day after the break that my operation would only take place the following morning.

As I sat with the feeling that I needed to get through the next 17 hours, I reflected on a difficult truth in my life: I tend to value speed over smart.

I knew that statistically I had a better chance of a successful surgical procedure the next morning with a well rested surgeon and clean operating room, but I still pushed hard to have surgery at the end of the day so that I could close the pain and the uncertainty. In the end, the decision was made for me. And I was deeply reflective about this tension between speed and smart. Sometimes the smart thing to do is to go fast. But in this case the smart thing was to wait, tolerate the pain and have surgery the next morning.

Here are x-rays post surgery, showing the intramedullary nail and screws. They made me feel like I was “back together” again.

I feel like the world is telling me “Slow and steady, Sam”. I am listening.

I feel like I need to accept more pain in my life. It’s part of life. It’s an important source of growth. And yet I avoid it so easily. Not anymore.

I am fortunate to be a very positive person. The pain, the uncertainty, the immobility has been tough at times. And while I haven’t battled to find the positives, it has been tempting to wonder “If I just didn’t go for that shot then I wouldn’t be in this position”. A sliding doors moment.

It’s a useless line of logic. But I think it must be a common lament for anyone who has suffered misfortune. “If only I hadn’t…”

A few days ago I did a simple exercise of inverting the responsibility to be mine by writing “I chose to break my leg so that I could…” I know that might sound daft. And although this injury has had me reflect on spirituality a fair amount, I didn’t do the exercise because I believed it to be true but rather as a way to explore myself in this challenging time. I wrote:

I chose to break my leg so that I could:

  • Slow down 

  • Have long conversations with people who are important in my life 

  • Truly depend on others for survival

  • Appreciate others looking after me 

  • Have my kids serve me breakfast

  • Really appreciate my wife’s talent in cooking and my love for food

  • See where the pressure points are in relationships between people who are close to me (they come out in crisis!)

  • Pause on all the petty shit

  • Stop drinking wine for a while

  • Experience a Ketamine trip (fortunately, my trip was good)

  • Think about God 

  • Open up 70% of my daily diary 

  • Experience real pain

  • Do something (rehab) really well that can only be done slowly and steadily.

There were a few more playful things that have come to me since then:

  • Have a pizza picnic with my family in my bedroom for dinner

  • Watch my daughter genuinely care for me

  • Have clear parental roles at home (Keri is now looking after 3 children as the sole parent!)

  • Appreciate a simple change in weather (I felt joy when it rained last week)

  • Have my dogs sleep in my bedroom (they didn’t before the accident)

In “Man’s search for Meaning”, Victor Frankl defined logotherapy as the process through which we find meaning, often through suffering. 12 days post my accident, I am clear on my meaning from this time: to fortify my foundations for the next 20 years - quite literally, a titanium nail and screws in my left tibia, and then as a guiding principle for how I live my life. The application of this principle is beyond the scope of this public blog. As I explore its implications, I feel clear and energised.

It turns out that there is no irony in breaking my leg after starting the year so strong. This is my path.

Now, to do a slow and steady recovery well. 

8 - 12 weeks without any pressure on my left leg is a long time! I went on a family sabbatical last year to Deia, Mallorca. We were there for 4 months, and I find it almost incomprehensible to think that I won’t be able to put weight on my left leg for this same period of time. A “sabbatical from walking” if you will! But this is what foundational change feels like - incomprehensible until I’ve done the work to incorporate it into my life.

I am grateful for the people who have held me in their thoughts and made an outsized effort to support. I am grateful for modern medical technology and Dr Workman’s surgical skill. I am grateful for pain meds and anti-inflammatories. I am grateful for a positive, purposeful, productive mindset that can steer me through this time and leave me stronger.

Introducing Drakenskloof by Kerala

Friends! We have news.

This last year has been a journey of renewal at Kerala.

A little over 12 months ago, we made the decision to start sharing Kerala with guests beyond our immediate family and friends. As our understanding of high-end hospitality has grown, so too has our excitement for and expectations of what Kerala can be.

Names are important. To overcome the challenge of borrowing a name like "Kerala", and in pursuit of capturing and communicating our distinct experience, what you’ve come to know as Kerala will now be known as Drakenskloof.

While the familiar mandala remains part of our logo, Drakenskloof, translated as "Dragon's Valley", is now the primary brand for our property. Towering folded mountains, the vibrant reds and greens of the Cape Floral Kingdom, and the property's many contrasts (untamed luxury, hot and cold water sources, and more) all feed into this new identity of our Dragon's Valley.

An exclusive-use mountain sanctuary, nestled in the Cape Floral Kingdom and wrapped in high service excellence, we promise to continue to be a space that is all about connection. With inside and outside. With yourself. With each other.